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January ICLW Welcome!

Hello all! It’s one of my favorite times of the month because it’s ICLW time again. In case you don’t know about ICLW, check it out here. It’s also a great time for me here at Stress Free Infertility because I recently celebrated my 2 year Blogiversary and I’m very proud of how much this blog has grown in the last two years. And, I’m most excited about my memoir, Ordinary Miracles, which is nearly finished and will be out to the public within the next couple of months! And, in case you missed it in my last post, I was recently awarded Editor’s Choice recognition by my publishing company and I am so very honored!

Here’s a little bit about me in case this is your first time here. I went through 6 IVF cycles (3 fresh and 3 frozen) over a 3 year span and I now have an almost 5  year old daughter and 2 year old boy/girl twins. I teach 1st grade full time and I live in NY, on Long Island with my husband, my three miracles, and my boxer Toby. I decided to write this blog (and my memoir) to help others through their infertility journey. This blog is also on Facebook and Twitter (and I would LOVE some more followers and friends there!) I will also be creating a website for my book and keep you all posted on that as well.

I am now working on my next book which will be a collection of success stories, stress free techniques that worked, and advice from those who’ve been there. I usually post stories on Sunday (but I don’t have a new one to post today). If you’ve been successful and would like to share your story here and in my new book, go to Calling All Success Stories to get the Q & A format I use. If you’d like to read stories I’ve already featured, go to Success Stories.

It’s a new year, here’s a recycled post to keep you focused: Get Your Zzzzs! And, we’ve had some snow this past weekend here in NY. If you’re experiencing cold weather near you, here’s a recycled post about keeping warm: Hydrate Your Body, Warm Your Belly.

Thanks so much for stopping by! ;-)

Happy January ICLW!

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Good Eggs ~ A Review

  So I recently finished Good Eggs by Phoebe Potts. It was a very good memoir with a very interesting perspective. I’ve never read any graphic novels before so, being a writer myself, I was impressed with how the good old phrase “show, don’t tell” took on a whole new meaning throughout the story.

  Phoebe paints a vivid tale of her life through carefully chosen words and drawings that had me nodding and empathizing through much of it. And, yet the whole book wasn’t completely about her infertility (which I expected) but there was a true coming of age stroyline; a story of a woman trying to fit in, be accepted in this world through her art and her religion and ultimately find true happiness while battling depression. And although I loved many parts of her back story, I thought at times, it was a bit disjointed as she went back and forth between present and past.

  The infertility was heartbreaking to not only read but watch. It was like a little movie playing out in front of me, a silent movie all too familiar. I too questioned ‘all the things I could have done wrong in the last month’ like on page xiv and wondered “where’s my baby?” as I sat in a shop surrounded by moms like on page xv. But the miscarriages and the negative outcomes she experienced…the pain was real and evident in each little drawing.

  I was really glad for all the humor in the book! Phoebe added in lots of little tid-bits that were really funny like the thoughts of her cat Reuben and even her slipper. And just some of the thought bubbles in general were hilarious. I particularly found the Anatomy of a Fertility Clinic Waiting Room on page 98 to be really funny and yet oddly recognizable at the same time.

  I also really loved all the sweet and tender moments like on page 142 after yet another negative result when she drew her husband and her in an embrace and the words “It’s in Jeff’s description to say the things I need to hear even if they are not true when the alternative is just too hard to take.” Those words rang so true.

   I was honestly sad for Phoebe to read all the way to the end and not see her finally achieve success with her infertility but it was refreshing to read that in the end she was ‘full of hope’ as she light-heartedly began the discussion of adoption. I did really LOVE her analogy in her Afterword comparing her journey to her Hebrew ancestors -”suffering and celebrating.” I truly hope we can celebrate with Phoebe at some point in the future as she takes on a new story of motherhood.

  Phoebe Pott’s book Good Eggs was nominated for The Best Book Award for The 2011 Resolve’s Night of Hope. If you haven’t voted yet, please do! She is in good company with a few other great choices including So Close by Tertia Albertyn (which I reviewed here). *You can also vote for the best blog while you’re there!

  To look at what Phoebe’s been up to inlcuding other reviews go to her website. For a sneek peek into the book some more go here. Happy Reading! ;-)

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‘Breaking the Silence”

   ribbonA I await answers from agents I’ve queried about my memoir and continue to get the same response of “not for me,” I get increasingly frustrated at the stigma attached to infertility.  Why is it that we have memoirs for cancer survivors, pink ribbons, go RED campaigns for heart disease, walk-a-thons, tel-a-thons and huge national fundraisers for various other causes out there but no body wants to talk about infertility or raise money or awareness? 

   Even though I’m not in the thick of my struggle anymore, my infertility is not behind me. I’m still trying to make time to advocate for this disease. And that’s why I will continue to strive to get my story out there to help others going through it and to work on other book ideas in the health genre focused on infertility. Of course, that’s also the reason I write this blog. I’m trying to prove that just because I may have been successful with my battle, there is still a fight to be fought. I am trying to break the silence and change the stigma.

   I’m linking to an article I stumbled on recently. And even though much of the information isn’t eye-opening for many of us infertiles, it brings a smile to my face that a major magazine like Self even published this at all. It’s about ‘breaking the silence’ from the waiting room all the way to Congress and it’s worth the read!

Breaking the Silence

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Meet Krissi! *(That’s me!)

  So since my blogaversary is coming up this week, I thought I’d share my own success story! I know I already have it here, but I never shared it with the interview style and always wanted to, so here we go! (With updated ages!)

img0801. How long did you struggle through infertility?
My husband Rob and I struggled through a year and a half of infertility until we got pregnant with our daughter Ella. And when we started trying again, it took us a year until we got pregnant with our twins.
2. What did you go through (as far as treatments, different doctors, adoptions agencies, etc.)?
We tried 8 unsuccessful natural cycles and my periods started getting very irregular. I went to my OB and she started doing some initial tests and mentioned Clomid. But after we got Rob’s sperm analysis back, she recommended we go see a urologist. He did more tests there and then we were referred to a Reproductive Endocronologist. We were told IVF was our best and only shot of getting pregnant. So we started the process with extreme trepidation, not knowing what to expect at all. We got 7 fertilized embryos, with only 2 of great quality. We transferred both on day 3 and hoped for the best but our first cycle was negative. We tried again with the only 2 frozen we had and I ended up having a chemical pregnancy (a 9.5 positive the first test and then negative the second.)
We started on a 3rd cycle (fresh this time) and my mom got very sick. She passed away right before I started stimming and I’ve never been the same since. I kept going with the cycle, knowing my mother who was my biggest supporter would have wanted me to. This time, we did acupuncture, I ate organically and took some supplements to help cleanse my body. We got another 7 to fertilize but this time all went to blast. We only had 2 that made it to day 5, so we transferred them. And we got pregnant with our daughter Ella. She is now 4 1/2 and is the most amazing little person!
We started trying naturally again when Ella was 9 months old, hoping that it could happen again without intervention. Six months later, we resorted back to IVF with a different doctor (because we had moved) and this time, we got 11 fertilized embryos, we put in 2 on day 3 and we had 9 to freeze. We unexpectedly experienced our 2nd chemical pregnancy (with an HCG of 64 and then the number never doubled). Just as I was miscarrying, my twin sister found out she was pregnant with her 2nd child and he was due right around the time I would have been due. This was the 2nd time she got pregnant on the first try and while I was ecstatic for her, emotionally, I was distraught.
We did another frozen immediately after that cycle and transferred 3 embryos trying to increase our chances. None of them took, we had another negative test. We were devastated and decided to take a break to get through the holidays. In January of ’09, we did another frozen cycle, transferred 3 embryos again, and found out we were pregnant with twins, possibly triplets! The third stopped growing and our twins are nearly 2 years old! They have made wonderful additions to our family! We feel so blessed every day!

3. How did you handle disappointments through your cycles (natural and otherwise) or months of waiting? 

It was really, really difficult. I cried. Alot. I tried to vent to my family and friends, but they never really got it. They really didn’t understand what I was going through and I started to realize that most people don’t unless they are going through it. The message boards I went to were my saving grace. It was my life line. So many women were so supportive and thoughtful. I felt understood. There was true empathy permeating through my computer screen. Now, I wish I had started a blog but I never did until a year ago. I decided to start this blog as a way to help others going through it.

4. What were the ‘stress-free’ techniques that you tried that helped you get through the cycle or time?

 Going on the message boards was definitely a stress reliever. I also tried acupuncture when I started my 3rd cycle. That accompanied with organic food and supplements (like CoQ10) helped me sleep better and feel better overall. I also did a meditation CD during that cycle and I really believed it helped a lot.

5. If you could give advice for couples going through infertility now, what would it be? 

~Don’t ever look at yourself as a failure. It’s not your fault that infertility has affected your life (not matter who’s factor it is). You may not know it now, but you will be a stronger person because of it. Become empowered by it instead of feeling powerless.

~Take charge of what little control you have in the situation. Do acupuncture, eat organically, sleep as much as you can, and go that extra mile to relieve as much stress as possible.

~ Ignore ignorant comments. Most people just don’t understand what it’s like so they may say something insensitive and mean no harm by it. If the comments come from close family and friends, educate them and open them up to your experiences. They may surprise you and be more supportive than you think. And vent whenever you have to with those who will listen wholeheartedly without unsolicited advice.  

~Be your own advocate. If any part of the process confuses you, your doctor/nurse/case worker says or does something you don’t agree with, or you feel strongly about a procedure or option you want or don’t want to take, SPEAK UP!

~ Love yourself and your partner and make time for yourself and him/her. You are going through it together and should never underestimate or be presumptuous of one another’s feelings. Never forget that you were a couple before you started procreating, appreciate one another and be supportive.

My three miracles

My three miracles 12/10

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What would you want to say?

      It’s that time of month where we break out of our non-commenting shells and speak up (or type up) for ICLW! So if you’re here because you found me on the list, your responding to my comment or it’s just your usual stop by, thanks for dropping in! I really appreciate it! ;-) And now for the burning topic of the week…

   a-good-ideaSo, now that my memoir is finished (YAY! :-) ) I had another idea for a book on infertility. But it actually wouldn’t be for the infertile community. It would be for everyone else. It’s a pretty radical idea but wouldn’t it be great if the fertile world had a kind of ‘guidebook’ on what to say/do and not to say/do? You know, like to avoid the dreaded 4 letter word that starts with an R….or even how to handle pregnancy news, invitations to baby showers and unsolicited advice. Not that we need to be treated with kid gloves or make everyone walk around on egg shells…it would just be a book that keeps it real. I  think it would be eye-opening and a must read for anyone that knows someone going through infertility. And, let’s face it. Everyone must whether they know it or not. When one in six couples are experiencing it, chances are a fertile person knows someone going through infertility. We are everywhere and while we most likely are suffering silently, we still want to be heard! This book can speak for us all!

   So, what are your thoughts on this? If you could give ‘advice’ to the fertile world, what would you want to say? I would love to hear your ideas!

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Some News!

  OK, so I’m holding off on my blog love post tonight because I have some news

 

…wait for it….

I finished my memoir!!! :-)

   I can hardly believe it! I will be revising and editing it and it definitely needs to be tweaked but it’s finished! I haven’t yet read it in it’s entirety but once I do, I know it will be quite a moving experience. It’s 105 pages of the utmost vulnerable, most difficult time period of my life.  I am overwhelmed with emotion at the moment.

IT’S FINISHED!! (Did I mention I’m pretty ecstatic about it?)

yay

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A Relatable Moment, An inspiration, A motivation

   julie_and_julia_ver2_xlgSo, I just finished watching Julie & Julia (the movie inspired by the book that was inspired by the blog of Julie Powell who loved and honored Julia Child and blogged through creating 500+ recipes of her cookbook). And I’m paused for a moment to reflect on a particular scene that I completely related to.  The moment Julia Child finds out her sister is pregnant. And with utter surprise, she suddenly bursts into tears with utter sorrow, saying she was truly happy for her. Ahh Yes, I’ve been there, more than once. That scene was so well done and it spoke to me.

   And, this movie was quite inspiring! Two women on the verge of fame, with such simplicity in their lives, eager for a purpose. It was inspiring to see the joy Julia found in her life from the success of her cookbook and just as inspiring to see the joy Julie found in her life because of her blog and then of course, her book. I also find joy in writing this blog, eager for a purpose. And this has motivated me to finally finish my memoir and perhaps prove (to no one but myself) that I truly am a ‘writer’ that has actually completed something. Soon…

 If you’re here from ICLW, welcome! Thanks for stopping by! ;-)

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Happy Labor Day!

Well, since it’s a National Holiday (for those in the U.S.), I’m also taking a little holiday from posting. I hope you are all enjoying the ‘unofficial’ last day of summer relaxing somewhere! ;-)
By the way, I hit 100 pages on my memoir! I’m almost finished and I’m so excited!!
The view from my beach chair!

The view from my beach chair!

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Check out some Message Boards!

   messageboardSo I have also been working on my memoir (which is almost finished ;-) ) and to remember the finer details, I’ve been visiting the archives of my posts that I wrote on the infertility board at Healthboards. This board and it’s members were my saving grace when I was going through infertility. There was just such an outpouring of support by so many! So, I’m going to recycle my posts on message boards. They are definitely worth checking out!

Messages of Hope

And this post was written by a moderator at ivillage about her experience:

Messages of Hope Part 2

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Blog Love & Memoir Monday

   So, if you’ve been following me for a while, you’re probably aware that I do Blog Love Mondays where I feature one blogger in the blogoshpere randomly selected from my sidebar. It helps me and all of you get to know a fellow blogger a little better. And although I LOVE writing these, they take a LOT of time, sometimes several hours because I try to read many, many posts to get a good feel of this blogger and their situation. And, well, while working on my memoir, there has been little time for that. So, recently I decided to write about my memoir on Mondays. But I promised to only do that for a month and well, time is up…

  So, I decided to continue Blog Love Monday but in a slightly different way (at least until I finish my memoir). I will randomly select 3 blogs from my Awesome Blogs  (which includes those with buttons) and “check in” to give you a bit of information on who this blogger is and what they’re up to. This would be much more manageable for me!! (*And I promise to get to do a full blog love post of these bloggers sometime in the future so don’t worry about not getting your just dessert!)

  So, without further adieu, here they are! Read on and then go and give them some blog love!!

    What If Thumbnail 150pxFirst up is Keiko from Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed who also happens to be the creator of “What If: A Portrait of Infertility,” an award winning video that’s inspiring thousands. She is house hunting (and just had an offer accepted) and in April, she started the road to adoption. She also recently became the newest member of  RESOLVE of New England Board of directors and she is working on a blogger network. So, if you are living in the New England area and you have a blog or would love to find out more about the other blogs on the list, go to her newest post for more info.

  His & Her Infertility

 Secondly, is PCOS Chick from His & Hers Infertility. She also happens to be pursuing adoption and recently started a homestudy. She is a little stressed out about an upcoming surgery that she may have to endure because of her endometriosis. Did you know she loves dancing? Read her most recent post to get to know more about her (and her childhood).

 

  DSCN1425And last but not least is Angie from Random Thoughts from Angie. She just celebrated her 3 year anniversary!  She recently posted a beautiful poem about friendship that’s worth a read. To get to know more about Angie, go to her recent Fab 5 post. And, if you grew up in the 80s or early 90s (like I did) you will want to read her newest post! It’s pretty funny!

By the way, all of these ladies are also on the ICLW list for this month! Happy Monday!! ;-)

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