Enjoying the Holidays

So, today is Valentine’s Day and I will be taking a break from Blog Love Monday! Celebrate with the one(s) you love! I hope you’re day brings you a smile and the love you feel today envelopes you like a warm blanket!

  Today has another significance for me though…today, I will be having surgery. You see it all started when I began to get extremely heavy periods after having my twins. It turns out my lining was really thick and my hormones out of whack. So, they gave me a D & C (which I didn’t even know you could have if you weren’t miscarrying) and put me on the pill. This has solved the 1 week torture I experienced each month but put my body into a tail-spin of other hormonal issues like extreme moodiness, weight gain, headaches, etc. (Not to mention the sheer irony that I really didn’t need the pill as a real birth control method!) So, my doctor suggested an ablation which basically “burns” the lining so there aren’t anymore bleeding issues. Since this can cause deformations IF the very rare occurrence of a pregnancy should happen to happen, I need the tubal ligation to make things nice and neat. So, in other words, even though this is something I’ve decided mentally, it’s now a medical necessity and there’s no turning back.

   I wrote a post about this before…about how my family is now complete. And I suppose (as I mentioned in that post) that if it weren’t for my infertility, perhaps I would have tried for another child. But, I am so grateful for my 3 children. They are more than I ever thought I would have, love, experience. *And I’m already experiencing how much crazier and more expensive a family of 5 can be! For example, there is no way we can scoot another adult or child friend or family member in our car on any given occasion because our 3 car seats are firmly placed across the back seat and the idea of opening the third row and seriously depleting our much needed trunk/storage space when you’re traveling with and shopping for 3 kids is a near impossibility! And planning a vacation? Well that comes with a whole other list of issues. I’ve recently discovered that we’ve stepped out of the “norm” of a family of 4 and now need things like “family suites” or 2 rooms with a joining door which become much more expensive on cruises and in resorts.  When you add the daily craziness that comes with a pre-schooler and toddler twins (that I LOVE but can be quite overwhelming at times) you could say that I’m completely ready to move forward with this, even though I sort of feel like a piece of my womanhood (that never could have functioned completely naturally on it’s own anyway) is now being taken away. But, it’s time. And…it’s O.K. (*I don’t mean to offend anyone here with or without children, just being real with some of the challenges I now face as a mom.)

 Oh and here’s a little sneak peek at my upcoming giveaway! Here’s a pendant that my hubby surprised me with for Valentine’s Day! It’s from Love’s Journey and is called Life’s Journey pendant. Isn’t it beautiful? It embodies the infertility symbol that the owner Patrice is trying to spread. She has her own infertility success story and also creates a Fertility Hope pendant. Patrice has so graciously decided to giveaway one of these pendants to one lucky reader! Look for details coming soon!